What Mercury Retrograde wants you to know!?

Have you ever found yourself reflecting on the past and all of a sudden you wish for the impossible? Wish for things to turn out differently than they did? Wish for different choices to have been made?

With this Mercury Retrograde in play, I am finding, that in my process of reflecting, I see strength like I never thought I would have had. Coming through the chaos with a determination that could only be explained as Divinely guided.

In this past year I have had to stand for what I perceive as justice. What I perceive to be right on a moral level… Putting all of my personal feelings aside. Everything I had hoped for and dreamed of were vanquished into an abyss of pessimistic persuasion. Just to come out the other side to find a completely different version of myself. A version of me that the universe has put through the torture chamber just to take me out and then put me in a polisher. It is painful but I am starting to see the layers .

The different colored layers like a polished rock. Each line has its own demension and story. Each spot has its own wound that has been filled with beautiful color. As you turn the rock in your hand, you see the colors change with the depth of what was once a crushing blow. You see clear layers that are your tears of suffering. Another layer that are your tears of joy. Spots that have a bit of length to them like stab wounds that have healed. This beautiful gem has been molded and shaped into one of the most desirable and expensive gems on the market.

So I stand here and look in the mirror. I ask myself again, what do you see? As tears fall from my eyes….

Divine Source says…

“I see you

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~Guiding Halo~

A thought on love. ❤

I want to share the unconditional love that I am. We live in a love centered body mind and spirit. I want all to know they are valued and have purpose. The fact that we exist means we are worthy. We have all looked at love as something we have to give. But it is not ours to give. We are love. We be love. We do not give it. We are it. Love is a state of being. We are all beings. What are we being? Love. I believe, from before birth, that is our natural state of being…. Perhaps?

Our Life’s Mission (Thinking Out loud)

Is to be Faith, Love and trust!

I have come to realize that trust is not about trusting someone else with your heart or trusting yourself with your heart. perhaps it is about trusting that there is more at work in your life than what you can see. TO understand that you are a small component in a whole world of beauty that the universe has to bestow on not just you but on others.

I can always “HAVE” Trust. I can always “HAVE” Faith. I can always “HAVE” Love.  Trust is not something that is ours to give or to take away. Just like love is not ours to give or to take away. Nor is faith. You do NOT own “FAITH”, “LOVE”, or “TRUST”! They are not ours. They come from a much higher plain then we exist on. Perhaps that is why we don’t understand them or even use them correctly.

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Meaning of Unconditional: not subject to any conditions.
“unconditional surrender”
synonyms: wholehearted, unqualified, unreserved, unlimited, unrestricted, unmitigated, unquestioning;

Is it possible that we use them from our own selfishness, not at all as they were intended?  Is that why we feel so much betrayal or disappointment when we feel someone has misused our “TRUST”? Or we say we have put our “FAITH” in the wrong person or situation? Or when you say you LOVE someone, but don’t feel you have gotten that love in return? I believe that we use them incorrectly. I believe we look at all three of these upside down.

What if when you say I love you, what you are truly meaning is that I am seeing you right now as divine source sees you. Only with love. Seeing you through Divine Source that is within me. What if when you say, I trust you, what you are saying is, I am seeing you right now as divine source sees you, as trustworthy. What if when you say, I have faith in you, what you are saying is, I am seeing you right now as divine source sees you with the utmost faith. Just what if when you say the word “I” you replaced that with Divine Source because your inner being is Divine Source.

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I believe that we are spiritual beings living a physical existence. That spirituality that is in all of us, I call Divine Source. That which connects all of us. That which we all come from. Therefore if these three things come from Divine Source that is our “inner being”….It would then make sense that these qualities belongs to divine source. Perhaps they are on loan for us to give abundantly throughout our lifetime but to give as tools for others to feel that faith, love and trust from divine source. Not to feel those things from us. FAITH, LOVE, AND TRUST are a Divine Source job. When you remove your ego from the situation, and realize there is no lack of these in your life, you no longer need to go in search for them to feel whole. You are them, as they reside and exist within you on a divine level. Yours to have flow through you freely from Divine Source to you and another human that carries Divine Source within as we all do.

You can be FAITH LOVE, and TRUST because you already are.”

“Unconditional Faith, Unconditional Trust and Unconditional Love”

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“Guiding Halo”

 

 

 

Knocked off my feet!

The energies are building and have been incredibly intense. I and almost everyone I know is either sick, exhausted, stressed to the max or dealing with karmic crap. I set out on a path to embrace the new.

I moved to a different city. I met a man… A very special man. ❤ I have everything going for me just to find myself back in the old for 5 days. 😲 I was feeling depressed and scared. Emotional as all heck. Then I realized that just because the old has appeared, does not mean it can’t be made new. It takes forgiveness, Love, Strength and faith. Do you have it in yourself to make the old new? To realize that the changes you have experienced have made you different? To understand that knowing you are different, makes it new already? Once you have learned a new way of loving and a new way of being, you can’t unlearn it. Especially if it is source driven.

So going into an old situation out of love and compassion to help those you love inspite of their actions or behavior… Not needing the conditions to change is actually…. Unconditional love? I’m not talking about putting up with abuse or even negative energy. I’m talking about standing firm in your power and knowing that you can handle any situation because you are operating from Divine Source. That whatever comes up, the universe has your back. They sent me a “Lighthouse” DF *

It is incredibly empowering. Not feeling so knocked off my feet after all. Imagine that.

“This is Alchemy at its finest my friends”

~Guiding Halo~

Seeing the Good through the worst!

Are you the type of person who has such a hard time letting go of someone in your life? Be it a friend, lover, or family member, even though you know you have to for your own highest good? Are you the type of person who sees the good in every person regardless of the heinous things that they have done to you and or other people?  I want to talk about this because I am exactly the same way and perhaps I can help bring some clarity for you on exactly why this happens to you.

 

Being the person that sees beauty where there is only black disgust is one of the hardest and loneliest existences that I can possibly imagine. You end up telling people how you feel and then suffer the repercussions of opening your heart and mind to them. How can you still care about someone who has done such a thing? They try to make you feel like your feelings are invalid or wrong. That you have just been victimized so..you don’t even know your own mind. How can you think they even deserve to live, let alone care that they still breathe. They should be shot and buried out on the back 40.  Oh man have I heard it all.

You see, I some how innately understand that all of those comments come from fear and the realization that the control that a person thought they had over a condition, person or circumstance, was just a misconception of their power as a human. Their misconception that they can protect the ones they love and people they care about from such heinous crimes.  They are angry because they themselves feel violated in the basic essence of them not being able to be as powerful as they had thought they were. Or perhaps not as intuitive of situations that they portrayed to be completely opposite of the truth. The reason I know this is because for a lot of my life I was that person.

 

 

 

Performing last Tuesday

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Life at times is a hard thing to figure!

Sometimes being stomped on. Having your heart torn out of your chest and stomped on again is one if lifes biggest blessings. I know it sure helped me grow some lady balls and get myself regrouped.

Not only that it showed me how much a person can truly endure. It is incredible that less than a 1% perspective change can change the trajectory of your life as you know it. Did you ever have a sling shot… Put a rock in it and had the absolute best intentions to hit your target? All of a sudden a person would tap you on the shoulder and say wait… Which direction is the wind coming from. Whats your arch trajectory based on distance to hit your mark. Anxiously you make those adjustments…. You feel confident and you realease hitting you target bang on.

Did you ever stop to think that the universe views it that same way? We have our dreams and our sites in target.. But it holds us up for a purpose so that when we do launch… We launch with all if the best perseptions and perspectives in play? When there are things your aren’t even aware of yet, that if you did know it will change your path and lifes trajectory as you know it. Be thankful for the hold ups my friends. Be thankful that Divine Source has your back. We are not in this alone.

~Guiding Halo~

“Time to go within!”

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Performing again! Beautiful life!

I have come to realize that, there are darker times in ones life then you could ever have imagined. Performing piano and singing had become such a way of life for me, but the universe had other plans. I would play piano and sing to help me deal with things emotionally but there came a time that I couldn’t even look at the piano or think about using my voice. It’s like the trauma of the last three years had closed my throat chakra so tight and all of my creativity was sucked dry.

I was being taught that I had to stand up for what was my truth. I had to speak out about injustice and a deep level of pain I had never imagined. How could I have ended up here after all of my success. Well I was being shaped and molded by Divine Source to create a new me. A new future and a new depth of of love and understanding in the depths of my soul.

Well my friends, the wait is over. I have come back and after all of that to feel my heart so full of love and joy for music and my musical family was truly amazing.

I can’t remember the last time my heart felt so full. Performing is definitely something that brings me incredible joy. I am so thankful and feel so blessed to have the talent that I have and to be able to grace the world with it.

❤ Thank you Divine Source for helping me see the beauty that is in me. ❤

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