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Energy Shift Oct 16, 2018.

Something has been changing in my world and the vibration I feel is pretty intense. It’s like someone has been shaking the pop bottle and the lid is about to explode off. You know that feeling when something big is coming and you don’t know what but you intuitively feel it rushing through your body. You can feel the growing energy of antisipation.

For me this is an exciting feeling, like anything is possible. Like the next wave of energy is a new cycle that will bring me the inspiration to be the most genuine version if myself that I have ever been.

I feel as though I am at a huge precious of change. Great change. Like things I have been working towards my whole life are about to manifest in huge ways.

The Universe has ways of doing things and bringing people together to accomplish our hopes and dreams on a whole new level. We really have no idea if the vastness and power that Source has in our life because source is constantly working behind the scenes. We are not in this life alone.

If you only knew who it is that walks beside you everyday, you would never have fear, doubt, or be stressed because the power that holds you where you are supposed to be in this life is the Divine. Do you have any idea the work that goes on behind the scenes to bring favor to your life. Just to put you on your path of your Divine Soul’s intention?

Blessings abound my friends. They are not hard to find. Just open your heart and see.

~Guiding Halo~

“Time to go within!”


When you love someone! Lighthouse of Inspiration!

Have you been the one that shares your heart and soul with no restriction, just to have it seemingly shoved back in your face? Have you done everything possible and been kind, thoughtful, supportive, just to be thrown aside?

Some people aren’t at all used to receiving love. They can’t possibly receive it.. Perhaps because they don’t feel loveable or they don’t realize the beautiful souls that they are. I could be wrong but I recently met a person whom this pertains to. What a growth curve for me. Don’t get me wrong… I have actually realized, that I have had some atonement to make for my own karmic behavior and having someone not accept your love, or even open up about their love for you has been incredibly painful. Lessons learned. Very hard lessons. I responded in absolute anger… I think I hurt myself worse than anyone else which is usually the case when acting out is involved. Definitely not as I normally would have. That poor soul. My poor soul. Sighs.

Know that you are loveable whether you are used to hearing it or not. Know that, when love was shown… The reason discomfort or fear happened is because the love you were connecting with was from Divine Source itself. Know that this kind of love is how I view you and how Divine Source views you. I hope at some point you can open your heart chakra enough to let yourself accept this type of love. It truly is the best and purest type there is.

The Tower definitely fell today my friends but I have to tell you, I have zero regret for showing such incredible love to another. I have no regret for the anger that I showed either… The opposite of love is indifference. If someone is angry, please know that the amount of passion that goes along with that anger can only come from a very deep seeded love. Otherwise not one single **** Would have been given. Lol. Just Sayin. You continue to be my lighthouse of inspiration. Scotish people. Geeeez Louise!

~Guiding Halo~

Are you awakening? Respect the journey!

Awakening is never done. It is continued, layer after layer. You can’t get it perfect and you will never finish because there is always a new layer or level of awakening that you will come to. Remember, we are all in this journey together. Let’s respect each others journey as we all give up ego and let spirit shine through.❤🎶

~Guiding Halo~

Time to go within.

The Hermit : Virgo

be34ab7be99b49bb6564407d95f9806e--daily-tarot-tarot-readingHe stands alone on the top of a mountain with a lantern in his hand. Mountains typically symbolize achievement, growth, and accomplishment. The Hermit has attained his spiritual pinnacle and is ready to share his knowledge with others. He is also continuing the path he has chosen, committed to his goal of ultimate awareness. The star in the lantern is a six-pointed star (the Seal of Solomon, a symbol of wisdom). The staff carried by the Hermit is the patriarch’s staff, a symbol of the narrow path of initiation and an emblem of power and authority. It represents the Hermit’s ability to use his isolation and the knowledge he has gained as a tool upon his path to reachUntitled1

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From my soul to yours. Unconditional love!

I have learned something about myself as of late that I need to share and there is only one soul I want to tell.

I have learned that the meaning of the words “I love you” have changed for me. While to some extent, I still hold this idealized version of the mundane, white picket fence marriage and bliss, just to end up stopping having sex after 6 years… Lol (How and when did that ever become bliss?)

I have been on a journey to manifest into my life for the past years a love that is connected, not by reason, or circumstance. Not by labels or houses. But by a true soul connection. A love that I can have for a soul regardless of it’s flaws… To love him just for who he is. This is why you knew that you could be exactly who you are with me. No pretense. I have to admit that It has definitely been a work in progress. I have found that soul. The problem is… I lost balance and got caught up in the old paradigm of it having to be a certain way. It’s partial codependency and partial control…

It’s like we are tied to some old expectations that are making us resist this new soulful love. At least for me. ” I think”… (But what do I know?) I am truly a soul on a journey just as your soul is. I am not telling you this for any outcome. I don’t even need a response. But I have realized that my confliction has come because in stepping into unconditional love… Our souls found each other.

I know that is why this bond… Soul bond.. Will not leave me. I have been learning how to unconditionally love myself and you my darling took this to a whole new level. Which I believe scared the shit outta me. Yup.. I know it did. I need your soul to hear this for my souls sake. Not for any other reason. Not even for a response.

This is a message from the deepest part of my soul to the deepest part of yours. I love you ❤

My soul can now rest easy as I go through life because I have spoken it’s truth.

For a Reason Or Coincidence?? Part 5


Step #3

So there, I was on the surgery list again. How exciting. “Said with a whooooole lot of sarcasm.” Here I was waiting again. You’d think I’d have been a pro at it by this time. Have you ever realized that the closer you get to something the more frustrated and tired of waiting, you become? Maybe it is because our soul feels the closeness of these changes appearing in our vibration. We first hatch the idea…the universe answers and then we line our vibration up with the intended result. This is when I believe we start to lose resistance to the idea and the universe brings our intentions closer to realization. This is also when we get the most frustrated to the point where we say a few choice words and give up on the whole thing all together….which is brilliant because that is when the state of zero resistance occurs.
Allowing the universe more creative license to bring us our desires. Why? Because we get our ego’s out of the way.

The late Wayne Dyer liked saying that EGO stands for Edge God Out. I like that theory. I also like the saying…man can do only so much…then comes God.


So finally the day for surgery comes. Surgery is had and all of a sudden,….I start losing weight. It didn’t take long. By Christmas that year I was 200lbs. Then by spring I was 160. By summer I was 150 and that is where I stayed for a long while.

During the spring of that year, about three weeks before Valentines Day…I thought…what are the chances that I could take my piano playing and singing professional? I decided to stop in at the local hotel and ask if they needed a pianist there in the lounge. They didn’t but they highered me to play piano for their Valentine’s Day Dinner in their restaurant. It was all very exciting and thus began my career being a professional pianist. Now go ahead and ask me what makes a person all of a sudden decide to go and do that? Remember a while back I mentioned that whole “Courage” word? Yup. that is exactly what it took and a desire to be my best me. I was thin and I had no more excuses to hide behind. No more fat to hide behind either. It was an incredibly liberating experience. I pride myself in being a person of my word but I can honestly say that this is possibly the first time I kept my word to myself on something so vitally important to my emotional well being. It truly has been a huge blessing in my life.


For a Reason Or Coincidence?? Part 3

Stage #2


As I sit in the emergency room, there is this young man sitting next to me. He had cause all around his arm. I asked him what happened and that is when I met his mom. Her name was Jane. I started telling her about myself and why I was there. I had told her that I was going through a divorce and feeling very frustrated with the whole thing. She told me that she had a lot of experience with divorce as she had been married a few times already and knew that it was difficult. I found her very encouraging and she gave me her number and told me to give her a call that perhaps she had some information that may be of help.

This is where our friendship began. We became pretty much inseperable. You see little did I know that at the time she was a major stepping stone in what God had planned for me. I would go to her house to visit. She had a piano that I sat and played at many times. You see, as a child I had taken piano lessons up until the age of 18. I had 9 years Royal Conservatory under my belt and nothing to show for it other than perhaps a learned skill or two of discipline. Ya to be honest? I can’t even say it taught me that. But I do know that music is in my soul. When I was just a little tike about three years old my mom would take us to a friends house down the road. This lady had a piano and I would plunk on it. My mom told me to get down and leave the piano alone because she didn’t know how this lady would feel about her little daughter messing around on her piano.


This lady said no no, listen. She is trying to play a song. I was hooked. Every birthday wish and Christmas wish, was filled with black and white keys and a dream to be able to play them. My mom had tried for many years to be able to buy me a piano but it never really worked out. Until one Christmas my dad who was a very hard worker, brought home a bonus check and told my mom she could do what she wanted with it. In that moment she knew instantly she was getting me a piano.

I woke up that Christmas and nearly dropped. I couldn’t believe it. I was so happy. I started taking lessons immediately. There were times in those years that I wanted to quit. I had had enough of the endless practice in the early morning hours. So did my brother. Can you imagine being woken up every morning of the week an hour early to hear your sister plunking on the piano? That would have driven me crazy. He still talks about it to this day.

Anyway, when I had left home I left my piano behind and went to search for my life elsewhere. I had gotten married and had two children. My husband at the time had lost work and I needed money to feed the kids so I sold it. I was so angry at him for so long because of that. But really and truly it was my choice. It wasn’t easy to do but I felt it was necessary. My mom was livid. However I told her that one day I would have another piano. I didn’t know when or how I would pay for such a thing. I surley never imagined in a million years it would be given to me.

Jane and my friendship continued for about 4 years. during the last year she told me that she was going to move away. I was quite upset about that but, it is what it is right? She told me that there was one issue she hadn’t worked out. I asked her what that was? She then proceeded to say that she didn’t want to lug this huge piano around with her and that it needed a home. If I could get someone to move it…that it was mine.

Can you imagine the shock. The excitement. The….everything. Here I was sitting there listening to this. I had told my mom I would have one but wow. To have it given to me? I just, I still can’t believe it till this day. So yes of course I took it. Are you kidding me?

When I tell you that a truly unselfish act of kindness and sacrifice will bring it back to you. I am living proof of that. I sold my piano unselfishly to feed my kids and a g/f I met in the emergency room when my world was turning upside down was that one to bring a piano back into my life. Wow. It was something I never could have dreamed of. Never would have thought of. Something that my soul needed so desperately. Obviously God knew that and boy did he deliver.

So you see, Stage 2 started right after stage one had started. Like I said the universe didn’t waste any time. It says now, and stuff starts happening. seriously, this blows my mind. What are the chances? I mean nothing could have ever cooked this up except what I believe was the Divine stepping into my life and saying,. enough!! It’s time.