Something has been changing in my world and the vibration I feel is pretty intense. It’s like someone has been shaking the pop bottle and the lid is about to explode off. You know that feeling when something big is coming and you don’t know what but you intuitively feel it rushing through your body. You can feel the growing energy of antisipation.
For me this is an exciting feeling, like anything is possible. Like the next wave of energy is a new cycle that will bring me the inspiration to be the most genuine version if myself that I have ever been.
I feel as though I am at a huge precious of change. Great change. Like things I have been working towards my whole life are about to manifest in huge ways.
The Universe has ways of doing things and bringing people together to accomplish our hopes and dreams on a whole new level. We really have no idea if the vastness and power that Source has in our life because source is constantly working behind the scenes. We are not in this life alone.
If you only knew who it is that walks beside you everyday, you would never have fear, doubt, or be stressed because the power that holds you where you are supposed to be in this life is the Divine. Do you have any idea the work that goes on behind the scenes to bring favor to your life. Just to put you on your path of your Divine Soul’s intention?
Blessings abound my friends. They are not hard to find. Just open your heart and see.
Sometimes being stomped on. Having your heart torn out of your chest and stomped on again is one of life’s biggest blessings. I know it sure helped me grow some lady balls and get myself regrouped.
Not only that it showed me how much a person can truly endure. It is incredible that less than a 1% perspective change can change the trajectory of your life as you know it. Did you ever have a sling shot… Put a rock in it and had the absolute best intentions to hit your target? All of a sudden a person would tap you on the shoulder and say wait… Which direction is the wind coming from. Whats your arch trajectory based on distance to hit your mark. Anxiously you make those adjustments…. You feel confident and you release hitting you target bang on.
Did you ever stop to think that the universe views it that same way? We have our dreams and our sites in target.. But it holds us up for a purpose so that when we do launch… We launch with all if the best perceptions and perspectives in play? When there are things your aren’t even aware of yet, that if you did know it will change your path and life’s trajectory as you know it. Be thankful for the hold ups my friends. Be thankful that Divine Source has your back. We are not in this alone.
I have come to realize that, there are darker times in ones life then you could ever have imagined. Performing piano and singing had become such a way of life for me, but the universe had other plans. I would play piano and sing to help me deal with things emotionally but there came a time that I couldn’t even look at the piano or think about using my voice. It’s like the trauma of the last three years had closed my throat chakra so tight and all of my creativity was sucked dry.
I was being taught that I had to stand up for what was my truth. I had to speak out about injustice and a deep level of pain I had never imagined. How could I have ended up here after all of my success. Well I was being shaped and molded by Divine Source to create a new me. A new future and a new depth of of love and understanding in the depths of my soul.
Well my friends, the wait is over. I have come back and after all of that to feel my heart so full of love and joy for music and my musical family was truly amazing.
I can’t remember the last time my heart felt so full. Performing is definitely something that brings me incredible joy. I am so thankful and feel so blessed to have the talent that I have and to be able to grace the world with it.
❤ Thank you Divine Source for helping me see the beauty that is in me. ❤
Life is so dynamic and full. I am so excited about every step of this journey. About watching it all unfold one synchronization after another. Each moment. Each memory. Each feeling. Each smile. Each frown. All parts of the journey that make up this beautiful life. Reach for the best feeling thought. Lead from inspiration only. Always. Trust and have faith in the process. Trust your intuition. Have faith that you are being divinely guided to life’s amazing new bounty around the next corner.
Understand that you never get it done because one event leads to further creativeness and the hatching of new desires. Enjoy your thoughts. Enjoy your dreams. Enjoy the ride and know, that source has your back always. Know that the universe will always show you where you are at and what vibration you have going on just by observing who sits across from you.
Know that you are perfect just as you are and source has a plan for your life. Your souls purpose. To resonate love wherever you go. To use your gifts and talents to uplift yourself and others. Every moment is a part of the journey. Please above all, never forget who it is that walks beside you every day.
The Hermit : Virgo
He stands alone on the top of a mountain with a lantern in his hand. Mountains typically symbolize achievement, growth, and accomplishment. The Hermit has attained his spiritual pinnacle and is ready to share his knowledge with others. He is also continuing the path he has chosen, committed to his goal of ultimate awareness. The star in the lantern is a six-pointed star (the Seal of Solomon, a symbol of wisdom). The staff carried by the Hermit is the patriarch’s staff, a symbol of the narrow path of initiation and an emblem of power and authority. It represents the Hermit’s ability to use his isolation and the knowledge he has gained as a tool upon his path to reach
I have learned something about myself as of late that I need to share and there is only one soul I want to tell.
I have learned that the meaning of the words “I love you” have changed for me. While to some extent, I still hold this idealized version of the mundane, white picket fence marriage and bliss, just to end up stopping having sex after 6 years… Lol (How and when did that ever become bliss?)
I have been on a journey to manifest into my life for the past years a love that is connected, not by reason, or circumstance. Not by labels or houses. But by a true soul connection. A love that I can have for a soul regardless of it’s flaws… To love him just for who he is. This is why you knew that you could be exactly who you are with me. No pretense. I have to admit that It has definitely been a work in progress. I have found that soul. The problem is… I lost balance and got caught up in the old paradigm of it having to be a certain way. It’s partial codependency and partial control…
It’s like we are tied to some old expectations that are making us resist this new soulful love. At least for me. ” I think”… (But what do I know?) I am truly a soul on a journey just as your soul is. I am not telling you this for any outcome. I don’t even need a response. But I have realized that my confliction has come because in stepping into unconditional love… Our souls found each other.
I know that is why this bond… Soul bond.. Will not leave me. I have been learning how to unconditionally love myself and you my darling took this to a whole new level. Which I believe scared the shit outta me. Yup.. I know it did. I need your soul to hear this for my souls sake. Not for any other reason. Not even for a response.
This is a message from the deepest part of my soul to the deepest part of yours. I love you ❤
My soul can now rest easy as I go through life because I have spoken it’s truth.
Isn’t it amazing how when we raise our vibration and on a consistent basis are living an existence of being connected to divine source and love…. That when sadness arrives it hits us like a ton of bricks. I remember when I used to live my whole life everyday in sadness thinking that was the norm.
I would get up day after day, doing the same thing with the same people, and became very complacent in my sadness.
Now that I live my life at such a higher frequency connected to Divine source much more often, … Accepting anything less, than feeling emotionally fantastic, has started to become an incredible challenge.
“Abraham Hicks. Explains it best”
Let’s be realistic, I mean we all have challenges that come our way. But when you operate from a place of divine source and love those challenges are no longer challenges they are opportunities for growth and excitement. Because on the opposite side of what most would call a challenge?, is most likely the biggest breakthrough that you have had to date.
So I’m going to do my best to remember but when I feel sad, I should start getting excited. Because sadness truly is the precursor to a whole new vibrational level if you let it be. I know it’s all easier said than done at times… But hey if I can do it?, then anyone can do it.
For many years after that I sat at that piano playing, practicing, and writing my own material. I always wanted to play professionally but never thought it would happen to me. No, it’s all just pipe dreams. That kind of stuff happens to and for other people, not me. Not some 355 lb woman sitting at a piano with no future. The only reason I was still on the planet was because I had three children that I loved more than anything. Or so I thought. I was so depressed at the time. I had always battled with depression. My weight didn’t help the situation which was a habitual issue and my health on top of that just added fuel to the fire. I went to see a psychiatrist and she diagnosed me as being bi-polar. After that time I got on medication and my life has steadily improved. Actually at an alarming rate in my opinion. When I think that just 4 years ago, I started on this journey and here I am now? It amazes me. But then again in hindsight the universe had plans for me. It’s really amazing to me that in order to become depressed you have to be a very self focused person. Have you ever thought of that?
For me when I was depressed it was always about, me, I, mine. Anything that put me at the center of the universe. I didn’t come out of this way of thinking for many many years. I still struggle with it today. As we all know, no one is perfect. Perfection is something we might strive to accomplish, but is never attainable. The reason for that I believe is because our idea of perfection changes and grows as we change and grow. Interesting, isn’t it?
Through that depression, I still played piano, practiced relentlessly and wrote my own music. I started to see that I had things to be thankful for. Like my children. I decided to start writing music and songs for those I was thankful for. I wrote a song for each one of my children. After doing that, I started writing music about love in general and then other things. I opened my heart and started writing about loss. How that affected me and many others. The problem with all of this is that, I was 355 lbs and way too embarrassed to be up on stage performing at that weight. The way I looked upset me a great deal. I had become a very hard minded person. But the piano and music softened me and I believe gave me hope. I thought, no one will ever hear my music. I sat at my piano and cried because I was doing all of this and the world would never hear it. I didn’t’ have the confidence to carry it out.
I sat down that day and decided to make a list of how to change so that I would have the confidence. The list was lengthily, but it had to be done. There were no longer any other options. Guess what was at the top of the list? I have to see a doctor about weight loss surgery again. Let me explain the again part of that sentence.
I had been on a waiting list for surgery for 4 years. First my doc put me on a list in a different city because the weight list here was so long, but while I was waiting they changed the rules of which jurisdiction they could do the surgery in. Because I was from a different city, I was no longer in the correct jurisdiction.
So my doctor sent me to a different city. This one needed me there once a week and living on a disability check there is no way that I could afford the travel. So that didn’t work. There was a Bariatric surgeon in my city but the waiting list was forever long. This is why we tried different options. Low and behold it turned out that all of this waiting, was nonsense.
My doc and I decided to put me on the list in my own city. Yes I still had to wait for two years but hey, whats the difference. I truly believed that this would never happen for me. I knew even if I had lost the weight on my own that I would never have the courage to keep it off because it served me a purpose. It kept people at a distance so I couldn’t be hurt. Even though I was killing myself in the process.
OK, lets recap. Stage 1, Lose job and possibility of working. Stage 2, Get her a piano. Well you guessed it. Here comes Stage 3. Are ya ready? I know I sure wasn’t.
I was once wandering through life doing each day with a certain amount of devotion to tasks and chores. Just doing what needed to be done. No more…. No less… Doing what I personally required of myself so that when I looked in the mirror at the end of the day I could say….Yup… This was a good day.
I was very large at the time. I believe that I weighed 355 lb. I didn’t like doing more than what was required of me in the moment. At certain times doing what was required of me, taking care of the kids, making meals getting them to school.. really and truly was all I felt I had energy for. Very possibly that was true. But as I have said in one of my prior posts, perception is so subjective. It’s that one degree difference that makes you realize whether you were actually content or complacent.
“It’s like I was stuck in a loop of nothingness.”
So many people live this life this way until the universe spits them out battered and bruised and forces them into situations to help them grow so that they will be closer to following the path that will lead them to their true souls purpose. Now I admittedly don’t know all the answers where this is concerned…no one does…but I feel that it makes much more sense to face your fears and take a risk now and then to set yourself on a new path before the universe gets fed up with you and forces you into it. You see to me?? I have been on the receiving end of the universes wake up calls. It is NOT AT ALL FUN. I would much rather get out ahead of things to listen to and connect with divine guidance taking sources cues to start the journey in the first place.
Is there anyway to do this? Yes I believe there is. Through meditation and guidance from source you can start your way to being the best version of yourself in this moment you are living. I believe the best version of anyone’s self comes from being liquid love. First to yourself and then to others. I have to admit though I believe that it was easier for me to show love to others before I could show love to myself. So maybe that is the other way around. Any thoughts on this? Please feel free to share.
Blessings ~Guiding Halo~
Is it entirely possible in our belief systems that our idea of God or divine source is possibly less than 1 degree apart from someone else’s idea of their God? Perception is so subjective to change. That less than 1 degree… that less than 1% of shift in perception has created countless religions across the globe. Does it not then state in fact that all religions do lead to one God.
We humans have such a need to control our conditions, that we live in for supreme comfort, so much so that it can be less than 1 degree difference from someone else’s idea. Trying to control these conditions is what makes us feel safer… But we have actually created a Chasm.
“A Vortex of Hope. My Hope could be less than one degree off from someone else’s hope but looks entirely different.”
The point I’m trying to get across is that, perception is so subjective. I think there is one language that we all speak that doesn’t even need words. I believe that language comes from Divine source. I believe we are born into this life with it and I believe that we stray from it. I believe that it is our Divine Purpose to come back to it. I don’t believe that our Divine Purpose in life is to follow a certain path per se. I believe that our divine purpose in life is to learn to “be love”.
First starting with ourselves. Second taking it towards others and thirdly, spreading it across the world. It is entirely possible to choose love in the face of anger, hardship and a perception that lives in a box. Love can cure absolute agony and help you be free from resistance. The resistance that is so thick that you can cut through it like a knife.
“There is only one thing that can take us all past the “what is~ness” of right now and that is love.”
Be rooted… ground yourself. Give yourself the best possible future by getting up every morning and facing the world with liquid love. Let it spread from the innermost part of you and watch your day change in an instant. Show compassion where there is none. Do not place blame. Be an encourager, an uplifter and always find the positive because if you do I can, reassure you that you are starting to live your life as liquid love and the only thing that will ever come back to you are Universal blessings.
But don’t just take my word for it… go into the world and try it. Most of all, when you are hurting and you feel like you want to break, that’s when it’s time to show this love to yourself.
Treat your innermost being, your soul with this liquid love that you treat others with and it will propel you to a whole new level of existence. One that you never even knew was possible.