I have come to realize that, there are darker times in ones life then you could ever have imagined. Performing piano and singing had become such a way of life for me, but the universe had other plans. I would play piano and sing to help me deal with things emotionally but there came a time that I couldn’t even look at the piano or think about using my voice. It’s like the trauma of the last three years had closed my throat chakra so tight and all of my creativity was sucked dry.
I was being taught that I had to stand up for what was my truth. I had to speak out about injustice and a deep level of pain I had never imagined. How could I have ended up here after all of my success. Well I was being shaped and molded by Divine Source to create a new me. A new future and a new depth of of love and understanding in the depths of my soul.
Well my friends, the wait is over. I have come back and after all of that to feel my heart so full of love and joy for music and my musical family was truly amazing.
I can’t remember the last time my heart felt so full. Performing is definitely something that brings me incredible joy. I am so thankful and feel so blessed to have the talent that I have and to be able to grace the world with it.
❤ Thank you Divine Source for helping me see the beauty that is in me. ❤
Have you been the one that shares your heart and soul with no restriction, just to have it seemingly shoved back in your face? Have you done everything possible and been kind, thoughtful, supportive, just to be thrown aside?
Some people aren’t at all used to receiving love. They can’t possibly receive it.. Perhaps because they don’t feel loveable or they don’t realize the beautiful souls that they are. I could be wrong but I recently met a person whom this pertains to. What a growth curve for me. Don’t get me wrong… I have actually realized, that I have had some atonement to make for my own karmic behavior and having someone not accept your love, or even open up about their love for you has been incredibly painful. Lessons learned. Very hard lessons. I responded in absolute anger… I think I hurt myself worse than anyone else which is usually the case when acting out is involved. Definitely not as I normally would have. That poor soul. My poor soul. Sighs.
Know that you are loveable whether you are used to hearing it or not. Know that, when love was shown… The reason discomfort or fear happened is because the love you were connecting with was from Divine Source itself. Know that this kind of love is how I view you and how Divine Source views you. I hope at some point you can open your heart chakra enough to let yourself accept this type of love. It truly is the best and purest type there is.
The Tower definitely fell today my friends but I have to tell you, I have zero regret for showing such incredible love to another. I have no regret for the anger that I showed either… The opposite of love is indifference. If someone is angry, please know that the amount of passion that goes along with that anger can only come from a very deep seeded love. Otherwise not one single **** Would have been given. Lol. Just Sayin. You continue to be my lighthouse of inspiration. Scotish people. Geeeez Louise!