I have come to realize that, there are darker times in ones life then you could ever have imagined. Performing piano and singing had become such a way of life for me, but the universe had other plans. I would play piano and sing to help me deal with things emotionally but there came a time that I couldn’t even look at the piano or think about using my voice. It’s like the trauma of the last three years had closed my throat chakra so tight and all of my creativity was sucked dry.
I was being taught that I had to stand up for what was my truth. I had to speak out about injustice and a deep level of pain I had never imagined. How could I have ended up here after all of my success. Well I was being shaped and molded by Divine Source to create a new me. A new future and a new depth of of love and understanding in the depths of my soul.
Well my friends, the wait is over. I have come back and after all of that to feel my heart so full of love and joy for music and my musical family was truly amazing.
I can’t remember the last time my heart felt so full. Performing is definitely something that brings me incredible joy. I am so thankful and feel so blessed to have the talent that I have and to be able to grace the world with it.
❤ Thank you Divine Source for helping me see the beauty that is in me. ❤
Have you ever found yourself reflecting on the past and all of a sudden you wish for the impossible? Wish for things to turn out differently than they did? Wish for different choices to have been made?
With this Mercury Retrograde in play, I am finding, that in my process of reflecting, I see strength like I never thought I would have had. Coming through the chaos with a determination that could only be explained as Divinely guided.
In this past year I have had to stand for what I perceive as justice. What I perceive to be right on a moral level… Putting all of my personal feelings aside. Everything I had hoped for and dreamed of were vanquished into an abyss of pessimistic persuasion. Just to come out the other side to find a completely different version of myself. A version of me that the universe has put through the torture chamber just to take me out and then put me in a polisher. It is painful but I am starting to see the layers .
The different colored layers like a polished rock. Each line has its own demension and story. Each spot has its own wound that has been filled with beautiful color. As you turn the rock in your hand, you see the colors change with the depth of what was once a crushing blow. You see clear layers that are your tears of suffering. Another layer that are your tears of joy. Spots that have a bit of length to them like stab wounds that have healed. This beautiful gem has been molded and shaped into one of the most desirable and expensive gems on the market.
So I stand here and look in the mirror. I ask myself again, what do you see? As tears fall from my eyes….