I have come to realize that, there are darker times in ones life then you could ever have imagined. Performing piano and singing had become such a way of life for me, but the universe had other plans. I would play piano and sing to help me deal with things emotionally but there came a time that I couldn’t even look at the piano or think about using my voice. It’s like the trauma of the last three years had closed my throat chakra so tight and all of my creativity was sucked dry.
I was being taught that I had to stand up for what was my truth. I had to speak out about injustice and a deep level of pain I had never imagined. How could I have ended up here after all of my success. Well I was being shaped and molded by Divine Source to create a new me. A new future and a new depth of of love and understanding in the depths of my soul.
Well my friends, the wait is over. I have come back and after all of that to feel my heart so full of love and joy for music and my musical family was truly amazing.
I can’t remember the last time my heart felt so full. Performing is definitely something that brings me incredible joy. I am so thankful and feel so blessed to have the talent that I have and to be able to grace the world with it.
❤ Thank you Divine Source for helping me see the beauty that is in me. ❤
Life is so dynamic and full. I am so excited about every step of this journey. About watching it all unfold one synchronization after another. Each moment. Each memory. Each feeling. Each smile. Each frown. All parts of the journey that make up this beautiful life. Reach for the best feeling thought. Lead from inspiration only. Always. Trust and have faith in the process. Trust your intuition. Have faith that you are being divinely guided to life’s amazing new bounty around the next corner.
Understand that you never get it done because one event leads to further creativeness and the hatching of new desires. Enjoy your thoughts. Enjoy your dreams. Enjoy the ride and know, that source has your back always. Know that the universe will always show you where you are at and what vibration you have going on just by observing who sits across from you.
Know that you are perfect just as you are and source has a plan for your life. Your souls purpose. To resonate love wherever you go. To use your gifts and talents to uplift yourself and others. Every moment is a part of the journey. Please above all, never forget who it is that walks beside you every day.
The Hermit : Virgo
He stands alone on the top of a mountain with a lantern in his hand. Mountains typically symbolize achievement, growth, and accomplishment. The Hermit has attained his spiritual pinnacle and is ready to share his knowledge with others. He is also continuing the path he has chosen, committed to his goal of ultimate awareness. The star in the lantern is a six-pointed star (the Seal of Solomon, a symbol of wisdom). The staff carried by the Hermit is the patriarch’s staff, a symbol of the narrow path of initiation and an emblem of power and authority. It represents the Hermit’s ability to use his isolation and the knowledge he has gained as a tool upon his path to reach
Continue reading Time to go within.
I have learned something about myself as of late that I need to share and there is only one soul I want to tell.
I have learned that the meaning of the words “I love you” have changed for me. While to some extent, I still hold this idealized version of the mundane, white picket fence marriage and bliss, just to end up stopping having sex after 6 years… Lol (How and when did that ever become bliss?)
I have been on a journey to manifest into my life for the past years a love that is connected, not by reason, or circumstance. Not by labels or houses. But by a true soul connection. A love that I can have for a soul regardless of it’s flaws… To love him just for who he is. This is why you knew that you could be exactly who you are with me. No pretence. I have to admit that It has definitely been a work in progress. I have found that soul. The problem is… I lost balance and got caught up in the old paradigm of it having to be a certain way. It’s partial codependence and partial control…
It’s like we are tied to some old expectations that are making us resist this new soulful love. At least for me. ” I think”… (But what do I know?) I am truly a soul on a journey just as your soul is. I am not telling you this for any outcome. I don’t even need a response. But I have realized that my confliction has come because in stepping into unconditional love… Our souls found each other.
I know that is why this bond… Soul bond.. Will not leave me. I have been learning how to unconditionally love myself and you my darling took this to a whole new level. Which I believe scared the shit outta me. Yup.. I know it did. I need your soul to hear this for my souls sake. Not for any other reason. Not even for a response.
This is a message from the deepest part of my soul to the deepest part of yours. I love you ❤
My soul can now rest easy as I go through life because I have spoken it’s truth.
So there, I was on the surgery list again. How exciting. “Said with a whooooole lot of sarcasm.” Here I was waiting again. You’d think I’d have been a pro at it by this time. Have you ever realized that the closer you get to something the more frustrated and tired of waiting, you become? Maybe it is because our soul feels the closeness of these changes appearing in our vibration. We first hatch the idea…the universe answers and then we line our vibration up with the intended result. This is when I believe we start to lose resistance to the idea and the universe brings our intentions closer to realization. This is also when we get the most frustrated to the point where we say a few choice words and give up on the whole thing all together….which is brilliant because that is when the state of zero resistance occurs.
Allowing the universe more creative license to bring us our desires. Why? Because we get our ego’s out of the way.
The late Wayne Dyer liked saying that EGO stands for Edge God Out. I like that theory. I also like the saying…man can do only so much…then comes God.
So finally the day for surgery comes. Surgery is had and all of a sudden,….I start losing weight. It didn’t take long. By Christmas that year I was 200lbs. Then by spring I was 160. By summer I was 150 and that is where I stayed for a long while.
During the spring of that year, about three weeks before Valentines Day…I thought…what are the chances that I could take my piano playing and singing professional? I decided to stop in at the local hotel and ask if they needed a pianist there in the lounge. They didn’t but they highered me to play piano for their Valentine’s Day Dinner in their restaurant. It was all very exciting and thus began my career being a professional pianist. Now go ahead and ask me what makes a person all of a sudden decide to go and do that? Remember a while back I mentioned that whole “Courage” word? Yup. that is exactly what it took and a desire to be my best me. I was thin and I had no more excuses to hide behind. No more fat to hide behind either. It was an incredibly liberating experience. I pride myself in being a person of my word but I can honestly say that this is possibly the first time I kept my word to myself on something so vitally important to my emotional well being. It truly has been a huge blessing in my life.